Mundaring Weir

James and I went for a drive through Mundaring on the weekend and visited the Mundaring Weir.

It's beautiful there, the other side of the Weir is not so much at the moment. The water level was so low, I was shocked so hopefully we get a lot of rain this winter

On the way we drove past the camel farm so stopped by and I got to feed a smelly camel which was fun.

We then went and ate delicious pizza. It was a nice way to spend one year being engaged... and now it's back to wedding planning which is frustrating and exciting but also stressful and scary all at the same time.

How has everyone been?

Apology

(this is going to be complete ramble, I am writing as things come into my mind and as I think of one thing it makes me think of another)

I think today, or maybe yesterday is the blog post 'Public Apology' and after how I feel today this post is appropriate.

I am sorry that I am annoying, I am sorry that I get excited over my own wedding and happen to bring up random things about it in conversation. I am sorry I thought people wanted to chat.

Yeah, that was all passive aggressive.

I don't feel much and it's something that I hate but I am missing a lot of feelings and emotions, unfortunately for me I still feel hurt and angry. It hurts me how people can just be such jerks. I actually want to be selfish, I want to throw a tantrum and just yell "why not listen to me?". So many conversations I have are just two sides but we are both just talking, just saying sentences and the other responds with something completely unrelated.

This is my biggest complaint and lately I've been upset about it on a weekly basis, how people just seem to talk at others, and ignoring what I say. The internet makes me so fucking lonely, but going off the internet is even worse as it's just James and the cats.  What I have realised from this whinge is that there are always a certain group of people that respond to it, and it's with things like "we're friends, you can always talk to me" but when I try to talk, it just goes nowhere. You know what, I would rather know that I have a handful of friends than think I have. Just fuck off, honestly I could no longer care anymore.

The people I work with have an IRC channel, but because they are jerks they created a second one and did not invite me. So yeah, basically they don't like me to the point of creating a channel for everyone else. Awesome. I stay in this other channel because that is how pathetic I am, because out of the 10 things I try to talk about a day, maybe just maybe somebody might reply to one of them. Forget trying to talk to any of them at work. I feel like I do hate my job, only because of the people I work with. I really only talk to two people.

I am doing all the wedding stuff myself (with help from a few people) and there is a lot to plan, and I am completely in over my head so yes the wedding is on my mind a lot but as soon as I mention something it's just even more ignoring me. Even lost a few twitter followers? (And another thing, why even follow me, less than 1/4 of the people that follow me actually ever reply so why bother following people if you aren't going to interact with them?).

A big thing I am thinking is why should we bother inviting anybody to our wedding. It seems like people don't give a damn about us, not as individuals and sure as hell not as a couple. Why should we pay for others to come witness OUR day. I know the day is about us, and that is why I don't get why we should make it so public to people who don't even take ten minutes out of their time to see us. Honestly, if it wasn't for having everything booked I would just call it all off and elope.

This is just a big whinge, pathetic Stacey always complaining about not having anybody to talk to. I am so grateful for the few people I see, and I wish I would see them more.

I don't know how I can be a better person, I take interest in peoples lives and I am always there to chat. I never go out so it's not like people can't ever come around to hang out, but I am just not the person people think of.

I don't know where this is going, it doesn't make much sense. Not even going to bother reading back through it, but I will post it because I have had enough. I am sure James has had enough of me crying to him.

I know a lot of this is my fault, I bring it on myself but I really do try. I try to make friends and then I try not to get so upset when I spend weeks at home with nobody else to really talk to other than James and one or two others.

This is the same place I was in five years ago, drifting around with no really place to fit in. I thought things might have changed by now but I guess not.

I don't want people to reply to this saying usual generic things. How about you think about if you're really a friend, whether to me or somebody else.

Story of my life

In 1989 I was born into a dysfunctional family. This dysfunction helped me develop my extremely odd habit of reading in the toilet.

I bounced around friend group to group with no real place, changed my future career as much as my hair colour (which was very often) and continued to just drift through life.

Watched and suffered through my parents’ divorce and learnt to come to terms with the word abuse and finally accepted it is what I did experience.

Studied Youth Work and then Vet Nursing but burnt myself out trying to study and work so quit everything and started work in IT. Nearly six years later I now want a career change which is proving more difficult than I imagined.

Found my place with James in the house we bought with our cats. Still find myself bouncing around friends and just not being able to fit in.

Planning a wedding and learning so much about myself in the progress. Taking one step at a time when dealing with my problems and most importantly learning what it means to be happy.

This was my life story in 250 183 words. It’s a part of the Blog Every Day in May challenge.

Melbourne Photo Post

Melbourne was amazing, I love it there. I took a lot of photos using my iPhone and various photo apps so I thought I would dump them here then post a write up later on.

.FOOD.

1. Brunetti's

2. Il Pomodoro Italian

3. Fig Jam

4. Bouchee

.SIGHTS.

1. Chinatown

2. Chinatown shop window and reflection

3. Carnigie

4. Melbourne Airport

.SIGHTS.

1. Church poster

2. Chinatown Graffiti

3. Window Crayfish, ready for eating

4. Arcade sign

.TOOL.

1. Rod Laver Arena

2. Setting up

3. Performing

4. Laser show

Facts you will never need to know, unless you play obscure trivia

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You can thank Redditfor these lovely facts.
*I apologise for any spelling/grammar/factual errors and just any terrible facts but most of these made me either open my mouth in shock or laugh*

Male giraffes use their long neck to hit female giraffes in the bladder, cause the female to urinate. The male giraffe then proceeds to drink the urine to find out if the female is ovulating. Commence the fucking

Contradicting to their belief, Muslim countries are the largest consumers of pornography.

If a bryophyte (e.g. moss or liverworts) runs out of water, it just goes into suspended animation and comes back to life when it gets water. Which means, theoretically, mosses can live FOREVER.

Penguins have a gland near their beaks converts salt water into fresh water. Once the gland gets full, a penguin will knock his beak on a rock to empty the salt out!!

From the time Pluto was discovered, about 75 years ago, it has only traveled one-third the distance around the sun.

That by the time you reach age 20, you have lived half of your life in terms of your perception of time. (explanation here)

Finding Nemo was released 10 years ago

There is a jellyfish by the name of "turritopsis nutricula" that can at any time just decide to rewind its age and become young again. It is literally immortal, and probably the most astounding thing I've ever heard about.

Around 10thousand thirteen year old kids on Xbox, have done my mom.

A species of salamander called the Tiger Salamander have a unique way of controlling the population within their little society. If they sense their population has overgrown, they develop offspring with specially adapted heads to eat their own species until it's back to a normal pace.

The oldest person now is 116, and 117 years ago, there was a totally different set of people on earth.

The mantis shrimp can move its limbs so quickly it not only BOILS the water around them but creates an undersea shockwave that will blast its prey into pieces! (Don't forget the awesome infographic from Oatmeal about mantis shrimp)

And to finish it up, video of Neil DeGrasse Tyson sharing his most astounding fact.

Book Chat - The Strangest Book You've Ever Read (co-hosting)

I am co-hosting this weeks book chat, the strangest book you've read, with the lovely Jessica.

The strangest book I've read would have to be Breathless by Dean Koontz. It has actually put me off his books ever since reading it. The blurb seems good but that is where it ends, the story and blurb don't really tie together. I kind of understand where he was heading, but Dean missed the detour sign and ended up in a completely different country with this book. I still don't trust him as an author now as that book just changed my complete outlook on all of his novels and when you consider how many I read, that's a lot of trust lost.

My second 'strangest' book is a collection that actually continues to grow.

Yeah, I am one of those people. I can't help it, I just have have this morbid fascination with reading true crime. It started when mum bought me a book on forensic science and then it just developed into true crime and then well, the above books. People tend to get a bit creeped out when they see these books on my shelves, and I guess having a Forensic Anthropology Training Manual may not help but to be fair it's all on my science shelf (sitting along The Men Who Stare at Goats).

I asked J what was the strangest book he has ever read and he told me about some SciFi book and from what I could gather this couple had a baby that was a nuclear reactor? It's called Dad's Nuke, Google told me it's a dark comedy so maybe it's not as terrible as I originally thought. SciFi isn't my thing.

So, tell me what is the strangest book you have ever read? I can't wait to read everyones reply. If my scheduled post all goes to plan this will be posted while I am in timezone limbo flying from Perth to Melbourne so I will catch up post Melbourne dumplings (awww yeah!)

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Tool!!!!

A quick note, I wrote a guest post over at Pretty Paper Things on wedding invites, go check it out and let me know what you think!

On Thursday I will be heading over to Melbourne to see one of my all time favourite bands, Tool! I am so excited. As usual any band worth seeing is missing a Perth show so I decided to bite the bullet, and empty my savings and head over for the weekend.

The last thing I wanted was to wake up sick today though. I felt feverish and a bit off yesterday so I went to bed really early and slept through the whole night but woke up feeling even worse. However I am so happy to have a doctor that trusts me without even knowing my medical history. Since moving, again, I have had to find a new doctor and havent bothered getting my history brought across. He said I just had the onset of a bug, but this happens every few months and always ends up being a throat and sinus infection, so I explained that to him and my impending flight so he was nice and gave me the antibiotics I usually take.

It will be nice to see my brother, although he will be flying to Perth on the Saturday so once I am back on Sunday I will see him again! And his girlfriend flies to Perth on Sunday too, so she will be dropping me off at the airport then killing time for a few hours and flying back herself.

I really need this holiday too, things at work aren't great and just stress keeps piling on top of myself and I went beyond breaking point yesterday so just getting away for a few days (and seeing the band I love) is going to be nice. Lets just hope J can survive being home by himself with two cats for the weekend. He even said he wouldn't eat just tim tams all weekend so thats a big step.

On Thursday I will be also co-hosting the Book Chat with Jessica from Sweet Green Tangerine so make sure you check that out and link up. I am still trying to rack my brain for books. I am excited about growing my little space in the blogger world!

Back to bed and to watch some more Adventure Time, it is the best way to spend a day off!

Link for Thursday