Clean Mind

I've been a bit quiet here but don't worry I didn't sink into some self despair pit, I've just been busy. I wore my new dress to the wedding, and some lovely blue flats and had an amazing time. It also put J and I into planning mode so we now have a date and venue set for our wedding. Exciting huh, it is until I realise we have 8 months to plan it all. What insane person, starts planning a wedding while buying a house... At least the house should be settled within 20 days and we will have the keys.

This post may be quite long, just as a warning. I have a bit I want to write about but will break it up to headers to make it easy.

Previous Post

So my previous post 'Not a Pretty Girl' got some really great replies. I realised that despite thinking that I societies views on women hadn't affected me, they actually had. I've done a lot of soul searching, and rethinking and have a new idea of how I want to be, and how I want to look.. which brings me to point two.

My Body

I am feeling great (if we ignore the arm pain from trying to do chin ups), and I have gym and better eating to thank that. Tonight while at the shops I noticed how much resistance I had when near lollies or soft drink, I just walked straight past them. I am not following a strict diet; I am not even calorie counting right now, all I am doing is making sure what I eat is as organic and clean as possible. I am rarely looking at the calorie information on food, instead I am looking at the ingredients  how many carbs/sugars and how much sodium. If I don't know an ingredient  I will google it and half the time not bother and if the ingredient has numbers in it, I am putting the item back. I feel like I am eating so much better now, and I feel happier about my body. Not following a strict diet, and making what I want with just some thought into it first is actually really easy. And all I've been drinking for about two weeks now is water, it's a bit boring but I will get used to it. Although I did find this nice drink which is mostly water with added lemon and apple or something. It's not a mineral water, it advertises it self as juice but all the nutritional info works for me, and it's delicious.

I also haven't weighed myself in months, right now I don't care about the numbers. I want to get into a good habit of eating well and exercising, and then I might check out the numbers. Instead, I am feeling my muscles, noting my recover times and really noticing the further I am able to push my body. I did chin ups with my trainer last week, they were assisted (greatly), but I managed to lift 100+kg using my arms. Yeah, they hurt for about three days after, but still, I did it! Before I would avoid lifting a carton of coke because I felt I was too weak. I also did deadlifts, they were fun. I've been running a bit more, but sadly I still cannot bring myself to run in the heat. 

My friend took a photo of me last week, it just shows me from behind but for once I didn't shudder. I just noticed improvements, mostly in my posture, and was fine with it. I really feel like I am doing well. 

House

We are nearly at stage of settlement, it's getting exciting. We are going to be doing our final inspection soon, and then it's time to buy a couch and fridge and move into our new humble abode. We got a quote for movers, but it was $850 so that sent me into a bit of a meltdown and now I have to try and organise NEW movers and see if J's dad will help us move too.

Wedding

This is a new one, but like I mentioned we have set a date and tomorrow I will be confirming our booking for the venue. My mind is jumping between food, stationary, dresses (ughhh again?), celebrants and decorations. I have quite a few idea's, so they are being jotted down and kept. Once settlement is over, we will go into planning overload. I am worried about money, at this stage we don't actually know how much money we have until everything is sorted with the house but our parents are helping and we don't plan on having anything extravagant so we should cope. 

Well, this has been a giant post. I am going to go through now and catch up on other blogs.

Tell me readers, whats been happening with you?